It's so hard to think straight and rationally when my heart's a flutter and beating so irregularly. I'm so afraid. Right now, its so hard to tell myself not to wish or desire anything..because I know the more I want, the more expectations hold, and the harder I'll fall... eventually.
I'm so afraid to let my feelings roam on its own, it needs to be tamed.
I'll never, never, never let myself be so vulnerable again.
All these mixed-up feelings and apprehension has got to stopped, and now, pain seems to be the only cure.
