im so weird, sure you'll stick with me?
im guilty.
i hate the times when i just couldn't keep the curiosity to myself and stop my itchy fingers from wondering to some webpages i should have no business to be in.
(btw HELLO, i am NOT talking about porn.)
i guesse after being compared before, it sort of made me a little inquisitive about the other side..?
..and however much i tell myself that it isn't going to affect me because it is indeed the past, has zero business to do with me and it'll just be like reading a story, it somehow did inject an unknown, strange feeling in me.
oh ha, i seriously don't know why i just love to look for disturbances to my pretty stable emotions.
anyway, they say bystanders see the most clearly. sure as they are, each time i do read other's stories, images just play through my mind like a movie, seeing things clearer than ever.
these things aren't related to me, but it let me learn.
and no, do not ever mistake my "resultant change in mood" to be that of a being jealously upset because i fully understand that it is the past and am not childish.
its just that it made me feel really weird and unreal, feel that We, are unreal all of a sudden.
maybe especially since i havent seen you for weeks, the feeling's exacerbating.
perhaps i should just stick to reading my own blog archives, im sorry for the folly.
