these days, it feels like being down, down and down under is all there is ever to feel.
honestly, i can't remember it was when that i had a proper, heartfelt laughter, or a smile free from insinuations of cynicism.
everyone seems to be putting me down, burying me deeper into the sands.
i feel humiliated. and so materializes a new surge of anger at myself.
whats with the cynical econs teacher telling me ive got the potential to have As and Bs (if "im not so quiet" and "easily stressed" i.e) when all she ever did was to give me a hundred red circles in my failed exam script, telling me it was "getting irritating"? whats with some random guy that goes "ohh so you were a 13 pointer?".
i like to believe they were meant to make me feel like shit.
whatever, im hitting the
